January 5, 2013 § Leave a comment
Most years I sit down and think of resolutions. Things I feel are for the betterment of me.
Looking back, mostly they are just testaments to the lack of love I have for myself, I don’t NEED to be thinner. Do I wish I were a Victoria’s Secret Model or worked from home so I could exercise at more convenient times? Duh. The answer is hard core yes it’s not even funny. BUT, the reality is, I am not that person.
I sprained my ankle and can’t eat as much candy as I normally do because I can’t exercise nearly as hard as normal…and it’s not really the loss of my physical abilities that makes me cry. It’s the fact that I can’t eat candy.
What I really look like (minus exercise for the sake of mental health, re: this is your brain on exercise) really isn’t that much of a concern. It’s what I let myself think matters. But lets face it, all women either think they’re fat, are worried about getting fat or just feel in general they could be better.
Screw it. I have better things to freak out over than the fact my stomach has a
weird fat piece of chunk slight bulge that never goes away.
For the sake of my health, I do resolve to learn to swim with my face in the water. Beyond that, I resolve to forgive-not only those who have hurt me, but also myself.
I resolve that I will smile at people in the hall at work instead of looking straight ahead.
I will choose to be my biggest fan and cheerleader. I encourage every girl, tell her she looks great, but never me. I never give myself any credit or slack. No more. I’m kind of awesome. Am I kind of a nut? yeah. Have I made some poor choices and been mean when I really shouldn’t have? Indeed. But I’ve done what I could to fix things and have learned some valuable lessons.
It’s hard to even write this. Being pro-me is not something that comes easy to me. Not at all. But for the sake of not breaking a resolution before I even have a chance to go for it, I’ll hit publish.
I resolve to love, live, let go, and just be happy being me.
November 27, 2012 § Leave a comment
On occasion I make things harder than they need to be. I get it in my head that something is to be a certain way, that that is the one, true way, and all else is just wrong. Much like religion, just minus God, a book that may or may not confirm it for me, and well, faith.
So with no God, Bible, or Faith, I put all my eggs in one basket.
The most recent basket was pie. My Mom having made it for years obviously has been doing it wrong so I needed to get it done right.
9 hours and 4 pies later, I came out with two that you could call edible. It was a humbling experience, my Mom, is actually the bees fucking knees. Not to discredit my Mom, but I think I’d go so far as to say all women who make pies in under 9 hours are rad.
But, I did enjoy the pumpkin pie recipe (I have no pictures of my pie because it resembled Elephant Man), so I’ll leave you with the recipe and this awesome clip.
October 30, 2012 § Leave a comment
I’ll be the first to admit I’m a more stressed out person than not. So the thought of planning a wedding is causing my stress levels to go through the roof, just a little.
Lucky for me, I have a few saving graces:
1. END GOAL BABY! I’m marrying the man of my dreams. Who the f’ cares what else happens? I’m fine getting hitched at the courthouse next week, so anything above that is just a bonus.
2. Sol and I are actually having fun planning. Between the wine/beer filled nights of just enjoying each others company, nothing has been more enjoyable than practicing our wedding kiss.
3. Our families rock. So do our friends.
I did come to the horrible realization that all wedding dresses are ugly yet I love them all. AND that apparently I can’t just say “fall colors.” Planning this wedding will also provide me with skills in being decisive.
October 20, 2012 § Leave a comment
October 19, 2012 § Leave a comment
I’ve turned into a foodie (as in: I will try anything and more than likely enjoy it). I think this stemmed from 1) living on my own. My Dad always said he was picky until he moved out and realized he couldn’t cook so he started eating whatever was put in front of him. Similar, except I’ve wound up with mouths to feed and couldn’t feed people wheat thins and chocolate soy milk for dinner. So I started cooking. 2) Sol loves food. A lot. So for him, I’ve tried to branch out so we can enjoy more meals together. 3) I’m an awesome house guest. You make it, I’ll eat it.
Anyway. October always inspires me to bake and cook warm things (because my home isn’t 75 degrees on it’s own). SO here are the recipes that have been done and deemed awesome sauce.
Chili: I had this at a friends Birthday. Super good, easy, lots of left overs and I swear it tastes better the more days that go by (I did not make the corn bread, I opted for a fattier recipe). Our chili cooked for about 3 hours on high and was done. The trick for chicken, leave it whole, take the internal temperature and stop cooking it at 155-it’ll continue to cook on its own. This gives you fabulously moist chicken.
Cornbread: Oh my hell you guys, this was amazing. It was dense yet fluffy, just the right amount of sweet and moist. Perfection. It’s a good base if you wanted to throw cheese or chili peppers in it.
Fried Chicken Cutlets with Sage: I made this last night on a whim and was really glad I did. Sol and I cut our own cutlets (worked out great). The only trick is getting your oil hot enough that when you put chicken in, it isn’t too cool but then preventing it from getting too hot. Frying chicken is such a pain…but the payout is always worth it.
Velvet Cupcakes: These were pretty darn good. And so much easier than using 6 tablespoons of red food coloring. I also think they have a nice little reddish look to them.
Pumpkin Coffee Cake: I really feel like this was just cake and not coffee cake, but man, it was tasty. Sol who isn’t wild about sweet things (except me of course) enjoyed it. So I say success. I personally did not like the glaze on top, but everyone else did. And it’s so easy! It sold like wild fires spread at work.
Sopapilla Cheesecake Bars: In terms of sweets, Sol does like cheesecake and so do my parents. Having tried and failed at making edible cheesecakes (you have to give it a bath and I’m just too unmotivated to do this), this seemed appealing. Plus my friend Erica swore by them and I trust her baking. Super easy. Really tasty. EXTREMELY fattening. So make you sure you have some peeps to share with. Otherwise, you’re guaranteed an instant 5 pounds.
October 12, 2012 § Leave a comment
Sol and I made a trip to Sebastopal/St. Helena/Callistoga for his best friends wedding. Food was great! Wine was even better. Sadly, we were so wrapped up in stuffing our faces we failed at getting many pictures. So I do apologize Mom. We’ll just have to make a trip out there ourselves!
June 22, 2012 § Leave a comment
I haven’t been blogging on this. Somewhere between training for a marathon and summer, I’ve had little free time and what free time I have, it’s been spent doing as little as possible.
But this was very dear to my heart and worth making time (and I will continue to make time): I have friends who are looking to adopt.
They’re hands down the best people I’ve ever known. Any kid would be lucky to find their way to Brad and Erica as adoptive parents. For real.
I don’t have words to describe their awesomeness; I wouldn’t come close to doing them any justice. So I’ll let them speak for themselves. But please, pass along their blog, to anyone and everyone!